Being at my faithful home church was emotional for me today. I had planned on going to Calvary with Derek, and halfway there realized I needed to be with my family. So I drove the rest of the way to let D know I wouldn't be staying and then headed to Faith.

I realized today that I am at a crossroads and to follow God is to lay my life down and follow Derek. Not this instant; we are not married. But it is coming, and as I worshiped my God with praise and thanksgiving, part of me mourned the life I will lay down.

So today I treasured my time with those who have raised me in the faith. And yet as I stood to sing, I missed the voice I now love singing beside me. I suddenly understood: my belonging has become elsewhere. That is, where he is, I belong there with him.

This is such a neat moment in life: watching things come together. All those pieces that hadn't yet been all present now make themselves known; how they fit is preciously designed by my loving Father.

I've been offered and accepted a position at the podiatric practice where I'm interning. So now I'll be paid for the hours of training and the additional hours of the work week. Job: check. I am loving and am loved by a humble, God-centered man with a beautiful heart who has just enriched my life more than I can even say. He is so much fun and so much goodness. He is a prayer and study partner; a consistent strength; a vessel of grace and truth. Man: check. hahaha. That's just funny to write. If God wills that our paths continue as they are, we'll probably get married this spring or summer. Crazy goodness.

Those are the two biggest pieces, I guess. Others still in the coming-together process. I'm simply enjoying every day and taking it one at a time. As ever, God is good and faithful and has provided abundantly. I am so grateful, and just in awe. And smiling lots. :)